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I did not hesitate. I said, “I want peace in the Middle East. I want all the Arabs to love the Jews and Americans and vice-versa. I want the Philippines to not suffer from poverty and will not be over populated. I want world peace.” The genie looked at the map and exclaimed, “Lady, be reasonable. These countries have been at war for thousands of years. I’m out of shape after being in a bottle for five hundred years.. I’m good but not THAT good! I don’t think it can be done. Make another wish and please be reasonable.” I thought for a minute and said, “Well, I’ve never been able to find the right man. You know – one that’s considerate and fun, likes to cook and help with the house cleaning, is great in bed, and gets along with my family, doesn’t watch sports all the time, and is faithful, one who will love my kids like his own. That is what I wish for…a good man.” The genie let out a sigh and said, “Let me see the map again.”

…then i woke up from my dream!

done!

I’m DONE.

I’m DONE with wanting and hoping and needing.

I’m DONE with feelings.

Nothing EVER comes easy to me. And I’M DONE with being patient.

I give up. Nothing in my life will ever be normal. I will never have ANY ONE THING to keep me SANE.

It’s over. I give up searching for fucking sanity and peace.

I am shit. I will never accomplish anything in life.

I just need to leave and be far far away.

make you feel my love

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven’t made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I’ve known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I’d go hungry, I’d go black and blue
I’d go crawling down the avenue
No, there’s nothing that I wouldn’t do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain’t seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn’t do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

the truth is…

we hide so we can be found.
we walk away to see who will follow.
we cry to see who will wipe away our tears.
we’ll let our hearts get broken to see who will come and fix them.

Have you found that person?

birth anniversary *sigh*

So!? i’m already 29.. but here I am still facing unmet dreams. I know that I wont succeed fast enough, duhhh.. So in my 29th year, I’ll try asking myself..have I reevaluated my priorities? what new things would I try? What fun would I allow myself? Oh my, another year of drought I guess.. another year of waiting, of hoping… (chiLL  eden chiLLLLLLLLLLLLL…) Tomorrow i’m going to create an intentional memory once again. I miss the part of blowing candles on top of my b-day cake..1 2 3 blow your candles (says my Mom, for like how many years passed, i even forgot when)..The true spirits of birthdays come from sharing quality times with family and friends.. who says happiness is just about consuming beer? call the night and enjoy them til dawn.. says who? …well i do!! (the beer alone will make me happy. swear!) wahahaha. Ok, to be honest, and so most of you could already guess, I’m not in my jolly of moods and fiery feelings about tomorrow.. yet I still hope and pray that I will be enshrouded with grace wherever this year of mine takes me. When I was 27 or 28, I figured I had so much time ahead of me, and now i’m turning 29, I figured, that time is running out.. although I have gone through many phases through that many years, still i’m not able to choose and have options with life decisions. My own motivation is what drives me for now, at least now i feel the thrill of leaping, enjoying both the joy and the pain. I am enjoying life. At least now I have surfaced, yet floating but believing… duhhh And now i’m thinking about my birthday..(big sigh).. the shadowy memories of my childhood yesteryears…memories flood back…cheerful invitations, loud colorful balloons, the gifts, ice creams and party caps, party bags, i’m having this oh-loving-feeling again, i’m a kid again! hehehe.. Happy Birthday to me la la la… and Happy Birthday to all the March babies and everyone else too! …and i thank You Lord, for I am still on the road called Life… Special thanks to my family, my friends, the people i am working with at eli and everyone else.. thank you to Khendra and Mary Angela and I guess to Angelito whom i draw my BIG smiles from!! Cheers!!

i am confused

This isn’t temporary.
I am Confused too many times about too many things in too many ways!!

ATTACHMENT

Been quiet sometime since I last posted something. I was and still am away. No not from my computer but from everything. I am trying to be deattached to everything I am very attached, everything I love, everything I thought I couldn’t have lived without.

Why?

Well, I have been very busy with my life. Personal life. Though work is also a factor, mainly its all about personal life… and then realization. On one of these days when the sun is all set to go down and you can see both, Sun and the moon in the sky, yes, at one of these times, it dawned on me that, the root cause of all my misery and depression is EXPECTATION.

And expectation is a fruit or product of ATTACHMENT.

You get attached to somebody or someone or something and your head starts playing those complicated games, not that it wasn’t already doing that, but now its more complex, complicated and involves more parameters that you possibly know of. You invest money and time and then emotion but everything seems not working. You get so angry that you throw things around. BLOODY HELL!

But why? Because you had some expectations. But things didn’t work out as you expected it to, no matter how much effort you’ve put in. It has decided not to work, so it won’t. And all your big hopes and expectations go into ocean of damness.

And why do you have so much of expectations? Because, bloody you’re attached to it. Since I have and I continue to go through these kind of situations, I am trying to be deattached from everything I really love, everything which I considered to be my treasured possession. Starting off with the people around me. My friends, my family and most importantly myself.

I’ve become so numb, I now fail to differentiate between things that make me happy and things that make me sad. I just feel nothing. In a way, I consider it to be a very good sign. For I am getting deattached to everything.

You can compare our attachments to that of the email system. Heavier the file, greater the time to attach and once its attached, you feel great but if it doesn’t, with all that time you waited for it to, then you feel miserable. And lets say you finally get to attach the files, then you send it to the desired end user but what do you to actually is flood the network traffic with heavy packet and packet load. These loads later on, hamper the efficiency of the network and its performance. And because of these attachments floating in the network, your other incoming and outgoing information, with or without attachment is not on time. So, avoid attachments. They might just contain viruses or worms.

eLiza… dont leave me now

It came like a bolt of the blue. Sometimes, you believe that certain things are permanent. Like the pillars in the office, the tree that grows, the mountains, they all look so solid that I cannot conceive of a time when they could have not been around, or of a time when they may actually fade away.
I believed the same of my friend, eliza. And she left today. Passed her resignation letter then have herself cleared for good, waved goodbyes and wished good lucks and faded away into the twilight….far far away.

I can recall as if it were yesterday, our first meeting. A bunch of freshies , faces shining with eagerness, nervous about starting to work with each other in a new company. Slowly but surely, we started to learn our lessons, most of them sub-consciously.

Just 2 weeks ago, I was excited about her wedding, we make it a point to communicate a lot because of the preparations. My brain shook my head in disbelief at the inevitability of the thought that shes getting married and will be living a different life than before.

As they say ” The show must go on”, change is the only constant. One looks for greener pasture and seek for comfort zones.

I hope our friendship will still bloom, until our last breath. I can still picture her… encouraging me and being there for me through my ups and downs. i can only recount the smoke breaks.. lunch breaks that we use to ourselves to talk about everything under the sun. I hope to just feel her presence in the office.. just being there… like the pillars or the trash bins that we threw our cigarette butts to.

masQuerade party

Halloween is one of the most fun times of the year that everybody celebrates. When we talk about masquerade parties, usually we’re talking about an event that everyone dresses beautifully. To make the costume complete you just add a mask to your look and style.

We’re proud to have celebrated the first ever masquerade party of Eli Global just in time for Halloween. We spiced things up with also the first awards and recognition that’s outside of the office, turning Beverly View Events Pavillon into a super cool and fun Masquerade party.

We took the opportunity to introduce a few of Beckett Cebu’s talents and each team from dealers campaign presented an impressive number. A slide showing Beckett Cebu’s milestones and a short video address from Brad Hastedt, Mike Obert and Tim Yoder was presented. Various guests also were able to witness the celebration, of course with the presence of our beloved site director Tracy Guillermo, Training and Quality Manager Ron Cocoba who successfully participated the event.

The highlight of the event was the awarding and recognition. Each of the recipients was presented a plaque. Here are the lists of the awardees:

Beckett New Dealers Campaign

•Top Agent for July (Revenue) Maynard Mariscal

•Top Agent For Aug (Revenue) Maynard Mariscal

•Top Agent for Sept (Revenue) Maynard Mariscal

•Most No. of accounts for Q3 Ryan Cleofe

•Top Agent for Q3 (Revenue 60% No. of Accounts 40%) Maynard Mariscal

Beckett EA

•Top Agent for Q3 (Revenue 60% No. of Accounts sold 40%) Frances Villanueva

Beckett Merchandise

•Top Agent for Q3 (Revenue 60% No. of Accounts sold 40%) Yuri Fernandez

Beckett Top Team

•Percentage to Goal 70% No. of Agents hitting Goal 30% Team Mai

Q.A. Award

•Q.A. score 60% Accuracy 40% Daven Saliot

ADS Award

Highest Revenue July – Philip Calzado

Highest Revenue August  – Ryan Lauro

Highest Revenue September – Ryan Lauro

Most Number of Contracts July- Mary Ann Jaca

Most Number of Contracts August – Ryan Lauro

Most Number of Contracts September – Ryan Lauro

Stars of the Night

Stephanie Aguirre

Benny Jakosalem

Best Team Performance for the Night

Team Fritzie

The moderator of the event, Mr. Mike Rodriguez and Miss Jessa Lagunday, all the officers headed by Operations Manager KR Monterroyo and Ad Sales Manager Kevin Thompson extends their gratitude to Beckett Cebu employees who participated and made the party successful.