i quit…. aLmost!!

No specifics.

Just suffice it to say, this will go down as one of the top  worst days of my life.

Yesterday was God-awful.

Actually, scratch that.

There are no words to describe how AWFUL yesterday was.

It’s enough to make me quit…. OK almost… to put it

bLah.. bLah… yada.. yada.. SIGH!

Mentally Strong but Physically Weak

Current Thoughts:
1. Flowers and trees are very intricate.
2. Cerelac. Sticky yet delicious.
3. People who go out of their way to be nice…they make my day.
4. A few of my favorite movies are in one dvd and i can’t let it pass. Movie marathon it is.
5. I cleaned my room and Im proud.
6. People surprise you.
7. People pisses you off even without doing nothing to you

won’t you dance with me

Wwwwaaaaaah. I repeat myself. Another visit to a night club and another post about the all familiar sights. Only this time, the event was like an Indian one and hence the sights were radically different. And no, I’m not saying that because the DJ, after a round of expletives and “Are-u-ready-for-some-rocking music” roars, finally unleashed a Himesh crooning. That was hardly what made the party different. It was the characters who flooded the dance floor that made the like-an-indian flavor of the night stand out and boy did they entertain me. And this was the second time in a month that I noticed this. You spot them once, they are probably an anomaly. You spot them twice and I smell a trend. Sigh… Where have all these people came from?

after watching Day After Tomorrow

Well the movie had really neat effects with a really cheesy storyline. Almost all the cliches we hear of were there – however, the effects were indeed awesome.

Have been missing someone a lot. This normally wouldn’t have made it to the blog but I guess I just wanna let you (reading this) know. whahahaahahaha…. weird.

A mind yearns
Strong desires
The past soothes
His present ires

surprise SURPRISE..

I was surprised today by the sweetness of a lot of people who I had not expected sweetness from. On the other hand, people I had really expected things from, let me down. Sigh. Ironic. I have decided not to complain and shall try to adhere to the resolution but moments like this make me ponder prolly wonder – I spent the  entire days expecting a moment of joy from a selected few, mostly in vain, while there are those who not only make me happy but often even gave me strength to remain nonchalant to the tepidity of others.

I seek the unknown
And fail to find
For the unknown was known
And there in my mind

Prioritize – be self dependent – remember!!!

NOT so HOLY WEEK and BORED

The way i spent holy week last year felt more genuine unlike this year. Last year i had my holy week in cebu and it felt more like Holy Week there because the usuals were there such as hearing sad music and plays on tv about Jesus. This year feels a bit different that I spent Holy Week here in Negros, in my home.. treating it just like any other day. I’ve become used to the idea of seeing a busy street, but no.. I’m looking at a screen monitor. Holy week was boring and i was stuck at home. I did a self-recollection though (believe it or not). I asked myself when can i be happy. Am I happy? Definitely the answer is NO. The guys do make me happy-sometimes (wahahahahah). Im bored, really. I miss being in a work environment. There’s something missing in my life… im not sure what it is. Probably too many… What if I have all the money in the world? I’ll buy a car. I’ll buy a house I’ll enroll in French lessons. I’ll enroll in Pilates… Yoga class. I’ll buy a resort. Even buy a hotel. I’ll travel. What if I work again? That wouldn’t be pathetic.. I don’t know what to do with my life. Again. (sigh)

what makes a TRUE friend?!

True friends are hard to find. I personally can count with the fingers of one hand the amount of true friends that I have. So what constitutes a true friend?

There are times in each of our lives when we are in need of real help. We may be in serious trouble, we may have made a huge mistake, we may be extremely depressed, we maybe very sad or we may be short of money. A true friend will be more than happy to help us in these types of situation, without reservation. They will not judge us on the predicament that we have found ourselves however much we are to blame. This true friend will not spread our gossip to other people and will be there to offer advice and support.

You will be able to trust your true friends one hundred percent. They will pick you up when you are down, they will be a shoulder to cry on when you are upset and will be somebody who you spend many an evening having spills and frills.

A true friend will make time for you when you are in need of their company. They will share your good news and bad. They are likely to be interested in all aspects of your life and will not desert you for other people.

So how many of these types of friend have you? If you have more than five then I will be very jealous, I hope you realise just how lucky you are.

In reality the unfortunate truth is that the amount of true friends that we have will reduce over the years. This is a natural occurrence as we realise that the person who we thought and classed as a true friend is in fact not deserving of that title.

DUMB you!!!

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

2008 SUMMARY

I shall break this post into two parts – summary of 2008 and resolutions for the coming year. So here’s a brief summary of 2008:

Overall feeling: Mixed

Achievements: A few small ones – mostly about being a good human being, nothing remarkable for sure

New Good habits: (this is funny) i don’t know… good??

New Bad habits: Not new but have been smoking like a chimney then drinking like a lot

Heart-breaks: yeah yeah… define heartbreak?? wahahahahah

Happiest moment: No single one stands out

Saddest moment: Let me not answer that

Funniest moment: Quite a few i could remember.. hmmm.. embarrassing most

Fav movie: well i like JUMPER, then WANTED, there’s IRON MAN then there’s also The Time Traveler’s Wife.. a few more actually

Worst movie: hmmmm…

Fav songs: I kissed a girl by katy perry, bleeding love by leona lewis, low by flo rida, disturbia by rihanna, apologize by timbaland

New friends made: shocks!! a lot!!

Old friends lost: 2

Crushes: wahahahahah.. around 3

Trips to home: seriously i cant remember but there were a few times i have to go home

New countries visited: 0

Major buys: nothing, like i’m so poor

Books read: 2-3

Films watched: 50-80

Which one is better – “2003 OR 2004″ ? I Don’t know. The same i guess

christmas wrap up

I’ve been meaning to get some Christmas photos posted all week, but time has sped by! We had a great Christmas. I spent Christmas Eve night with my family and we went to midnight mass together except for pop (duhhhHhhhhh). Mass was really moving. The music was so good, which always helps me to get into a spiritual mood (really, seriously). Even though khendra was with us, thankfully she was behaving like an angel. Im impressed! We got home from mass and then Khendra was so tired, so I got her ready for bed, told her that Santa was on his way, and she pretty much went to sleep immediately. She didn’t want to risk Santa not stopping at our house because she is awake. wahahahahaha….

I had a nice Chrismas. Quiet, but nice. I missed being surrounded by extended family and the hustle and bustle of this time of year, but it was also really nice to be able to just be with our family. We had a nice traditional Christmas dinner, stuffed ourselves silly, and enjoyed the day together. Sometimes quiet is just fine.